Sometimes I write about subjects. Usually I just write about stuff.
The new year will be here soon, I've already reflected, now it's time to look forward.
Is nearly over. There are 8 hours and 36 minutes left of this year in my time zone, as of posting. It's actually already next year in some parts of the world.. hi family.. how's 2012? Here, it's still the old year.. and time to reminisce...
*picture goes all blurry while harp plays*
Well.. really, it's been much like most other fucking years, didn't achieve nearly what I wanted to, or what would be a regular level of achievement for a normal person, or even the modest tasks which I more realistically set for myself, but it wasn't so bad.
Did some travelling.. big trip to Canada and a stop by Berlin, and London, and later to Paris.. started a new job, something completely new as a tour guide, and made a much more concerted effort to get registered with casting agencies. It yielded exactly nothing but.. well, that's actually kind of crap.
Was in a few video project thingies, and an actual movie.. at least I equaled my average for a year.. and actually began making my own stuff. Started quite late in the year, and didn't do nearly as much as what I wanted to, and it's all pretty.. well.. bad, but considering I'd done it not at all any previous year this is a huge achievement. I think, even with the travelling, and actually having some formal employment, this is my most prized achievement of the year.
And when I look back on what I said a year ago ..
For the next year.. I dunno, more of the same, more movies, acting in and making, better movies.. both again. Get a job, an actual job that pays money and.. well, just be super awesome in general.I haven't done so bad, I mean yeah, I pretty much did all those things, an of course, the last one I achieved quite beautifully :)
is the time for a fresh new start, putting your head down and getting your shit together.. doing new things and doing those things that you're supposed to do but never getting around to..
then it's ok to just.. bum around and not get much done in the old year.. right?
*does it anyway*
Night I tell you!
In a few days it will be 2012, the last year the earth will exist, or exist in it's current form, or that humans will be around, or that our civilization will be as we know it or.. something. That's if you believe the Mayans, and that what they wrote has been interpreted correctly, and that our calendar year somehow corresponds with what was written in whatever texts we get this from.. and that they knew what they were talking about..
So.. 2 days left that we know we're going to be here.. (if you believe all the stuff in the previous paragraph) because once we hit Jan 1, 2012 we just don't know how long there will be.. maybe a few minutes after midnight, maybe 6 months.. (unless you're going with the December 21 prediction or whatever other date prediction assuming there is a theory that it could be any other date which I'm not sure there is, but that would spoil half the fun wouldn't it now) so you might as well part it on up on NYE.. get as drunk as you want, spend all your money, go somewhere you haven't gone before..
of course.. you might spend every cent you have until your next paycheck, say on the 5th of Jan, have people over to eat all your food and mess your place up, and drink so much that you're sick for at least a day and a half, and then drearily go to work and just be hungry and miserable and bored because you don't have money for food or food left and everyone is pissed off with you because of something you said when you were drunk and have a miserable shitty few days of it and then the world ends.. just before you get paid again and everyone forgets about the bullshit of New Year's Eve and right after you finally get around to cleaning the place up properly, moving the furniture and scrubbing the floors and everything.
It's a possibility.
All about Cooley. Santa was very good to her this year.. we're thinking that she's just permanently on the "cute" list.
Christmas has been and gone.. well.. I mean, the main bit of it, it's still boxing day and er.. 2nd/3rd day of Christmas? I dunno.. but yesterday is gone. We did our presents, got some nice things.. though one of my presents was suspiciously like something a kitty would want..
anyway, made rocks, that is, made bread that turned out like rocks but it didn't matter because we had so much other food that there was more than enough for our guests.. oh, did I mention, we had guests. Just a few, our usual xmas people, and we all ate, listened to cheesy music and watched some silly movies.
I think it was quite a success. And we have leftovers, that's the best bit.
Well.. currently Santa's flying over South East Asia, according to my sources.. so I'm gonna assume list is done and checked twice, so at this point, there's not much I can do.. if I'm on the naughty list, I'm staying there.
Fortunately I've been good this year. As usual.
So.. this is Christmas, as the overplayed and otherwise annoying enough song goes.. what have we done? Oh the usual, nothing too interesting. Gonna spend the next few days preparing for guests, eating ,drinking and hanging out with guests, hopefully in a merry fashion.. oh and presents. Yeah, there's already some under the tree.. (actually under where the tree goes, we been putting it in the spare room for most of the time so Cooley doesn't chew on it) but yeah..
Not much else to say. It's Christmas, hope everyone has an awesome one.
Don't drink too much :)
I know, it's something I usually never do, but today is a very particular day on which it is appropriate to "air one's grievances".
Festivus, a little known holiday where you get to er.. air your grievances. Semi famous for being featured in a very popular 90s sitcom. Anyway whatever who cares.. here they are. (my grievances that is).
Acting "career". Grievance being, well, my need to put the word "career" in those quotes.. don't have one, still going nowhere, did like one film this year, and no theatre or really anything else, as usuall the infrequent auditions I go for come to nothing, well one recent one but I went for a quite a few over the last month and one of the others I really liked the sound of and thought I'd have a good chance at.. and the stuff I've done is poor and small in number. I keep meaning to do a lot more but for one reason or another, usually quite poor reasons, I don't. *grumbles*
Lack of money. Don't have much money. This is because of my job, which pretty much sucks, well it's an ordinary job that I like as much as any I would do, but there are only so many hours I can do it, and at the moment the season is slow and I'm making next to nothing.
My job. Well, it sucks. I mean, it's not bad but it's like any job, which sucks. One reason being I don't make much but there are other reasons.
My latest upload on youtube doesn't have a thumbnail. I mean a proper one.. you know, a bit from one of the clips of the video. This vexes me.
Other stuff.. lots of it. I could be here all day.
Oh yeah.. the world, people are poor, there's violence, illness equality, other bad things. Work it out world!
It is the shortest day o the year today, at least in the Northern Hemisphere, at least according to whichever site I clicked on when I googled winter solstice.. it's either today or yesterday.. whichever, there are really only a few minutes difference in the amount of light we see.
Today, or at least according to a certain script I often quote, and very near to the same aforementioned sites I spoke of, had exactly twice as much dark, as there was light. Not sure exactly what that means, as the sun takes it's time to both rise and set, but that's what they say if you're on the 50th parallel, as I am.
Yeah it's 3 days before Christmas, 2 if you count xmas eve which we do here and of course I had things to do.. stuff I should have done already but I'm doing pretty well if I'm not still desperately pushing through the crowds in the last hours of whatever's open being open on xmas eve, which is pretty much a holiday here so not so much and pretty early.. er, where was I, yeah, so getting stuff done on the 22nd, very responsible by my standards.
*sighs* That time of year.
Yeah, I can write backwards :). Actually not really, I just google translated that.. it is Hebrew and it does mean (according to google, haven't actually checked with Erik, who does know) Happy Hannukah. Or Happy Channukah.. depending on your preference. It is the first night today and we're beginning our holiday hosting season this evening, with an elegant eve of latkes and stuff, spinning the dreidel with friends. Yes, got a dreidel this year, couldn't find it last year..
It's a strange time of year and a strange year for this strange time, one of our country's most beloved men, Vaclav Havel, dissident playwright during the communist years, major player in the Velvet revolution and President of Czechlosovakia and then the Czech Republic, died just 2 days ago, so it will be a relatively subdued season this year, for the Czech Republic...
nevertheless, life goes on, people still celebrate, lights are up, music is playing.. and all around Prague there are pools on the street, with carp swimming around in them, awaiting their fate...
One must pay for. *groans* I've had a pretty good run recently of getting off mildly after a night of drinking, about the last month or so. I wake up, sometimes have a small headache and often not even that and get on with my day.
Well, my blessed time seems to be over.. just in time for the holiday season too. It's rubbish. I'm not sure if there was something particular to last night, didn't really drink so much, although the bit between finishing my last drink and waking up in the middle of the night still half dressed is completely lost to me. Weird.
Anyway.. it's all heating up around here, parties to plan, feasts to get organized, bars to attend.
Not tonight though.
I suppose.
Yeah, did another one of our episodes.. this one about trains. I don't really like it but I put it up and I'm linking it here anyway. These episode thingies are not going exactly how I envisioned.. this envisioning which began long ago and has finally been done a few times after many false starts.. but I've liked most of them, kind of. this one.. er.. I dunno.. I know sometimes you have a bad day and anyone can have times when they don't have much to say that's interesting.. though of course when the subject is trains how could that be ;)... but I've realized, and particularly after doing, and viewing this ep that.. I'm just not that good at this. The idea was to be interesting, funny, silly.. and i take it so fucking seriously? I mean... Erik's cool, he always says something witty but I'm always trying to get us back on the boring track. Don't know why I do it.. I suppose I can train myself out of it, anything can be learnt, or unlearnt. Oh well.
I've been going over all my accents, regional, international.. ones I don't have which is pretty much all of them because I don't have one, not really.. the way I speak is a mix of many things and to speak with any one accent, I would always have to fake it..
Is today. Should't be such a letdown, as I don't have a traditional job, and in fact, don't work much at all. Shameful, I know. I am being bothered though. I just want to get some of my stuff done, look up some stuff and.. well let's face it a lot of today will be spent me doing stuff that is mostly in the "wasting time" category, and very little of researching, practicing, editing, cleaning up etc.. and even stuff that's useful for work (that is the paying kind) but still, if I'm not going to get anything out of this time, then I might as well spend it a way that I enjoy, as opposed to not getting any of that stuff done, and not being able to do whatever due to someone being here who will hang around for way longer than is necessary, which is already way longer than I'd like.
It's the stupid little things that bother me... computer stuff, can't put a certain program on the comp due to, I dunno, not understand how easy ti really is.. other computer stuff. People coming here and hanging around all day, who I've numerous times tried to explain that I really do need time to do stuff, on my own and every time he takes his sweet ass time hanging around and I seem annoyed he gets pissy and asks why and I either leave it or have to explain the whole thing which I've already gone through, yet again..
I had an average day to put it in the mildest possible way. Started when I woke up, turned on a light, which went out after half a second, taking everything else with it. Including the computer which you can imagine was particularly vexing. So, due misunderstandings, assumptions and just plain stupidi er.. naivety, I was sitting here without any electricity, for some hours.
The days really get short so quickly, I've noticed. I mean, it's obvious why when the end of daylight savings comes, you get an instant hour's difference, that's understandable.. but from then on it just gets shorter and shorter by the second. I'm not sure that makes much sense, but I've noticed in the mornings.. you get the extra hour then, but within a few weeks it still dark by 7am or so.. and on a day that's dark by 4pm.
I'd probably rest on them.
So, a lovely sunny Saturday. It's nice to get those, particularly this time of year when one does not expect nice kinds of weather. Pleasant it was, though, not having a lounging about day, I had things to do!
I had to do the old fiddly change transit thing that one must do at times, so I go to Narodni Trida, and wait for the 17. It's a weekend so the trams are coming slightly less frequently than weekdays, but still not so bad. one showed up after not long. Well, I didn't notice it at first, because some woman came up and asked me how to get to Prague Castle, even though I was checking through my little notebook at the time in the vain hope I'd written some information that was important there.. so another lady took over from me, explaining in detail how to get there. In the whole kerfuffle I didn't notice the 17 waiting there at first, it was backed up, like a tram is when there's another tram waiting ahead of it, but there was no other tram in front. I went up to get on it, and it moved forward.. oh, thinks I, it's moving up to the front, where it's supposed to be. But no, it didn't.. just kept going.
So I had to wait for the next one. And no, the important info was not in my little notebook.
I get to my destination, and I walk and walk, I hadn't been to this place before but I had a pretty good idea of how to get there, until an unfamiliar road, one that I was sure I hadn't seen on the map, came up ahead of me. Then, lo and behold, I see someone I know coming across the road. Hadn't seen him for a while, so we did a stop and chat, and I asked where this place was.. I remembered the street, sorta. He scratched his head, sure that he was familiar with it.. and then realized, it was written on the street sign right above his head. Oh how we laughed and laughed.
So.. said ciao and went on, down that street, the street I was supposed to be on. But my destination was not along it! Walked back up that street, and found it ended where I had begun. I consulted my crudely drawn map and realized that all the streets were wrong, or the google map was wrong because they didn't match up. That my own map was an inaccurate representation of the official map, is not a possibility of course.
I walked up and down a bit. Then made a phone call, found out, I had the address wrong. No idea how that happened, but I walked on to this other street. Fortunately it had a name which kinda gave away where it was so it wasn't so hard to find, though the place I needed to go was a bit difficult to spot, part of a big complex of warehouses and stuff.. so I walked past the entrance a few times until I found it, then I wandered around in there for a few more minutes.. and then I thought the door was locked and waited outside like a chump.
Pretty typical of me trying to get somewhere. On the way home, I waited at the tram stop for the 17 again, checked the time it came, but it didn't come. Had to wait for the next one, and then it didn't go back the samw way but took me of course. Damn 17!
Life really should be simpler than this. That's what, (or something similar to that, "life should be much easier", "I thought you said it would make life easier", "things really should be easier", I remembered the exact words earlier, but I failed to note them right away) a I heard as I was walking a busy Prague street on the way to work earlier on.. they were said to a woman, carrying a large box, which looked like it had been filled with some kind of fruit or vegetable, but was now almost empty, with difficulty through the too narrow streets, full of people already experiencing christmastime.. by a distinguished sounding Englishman wearing a sorta Dr Who type coat.
Well it seemed intriguing at the time. I also saw some ghostbusters tonight... that is, I passed a car with the ghostbusters symbol on it. I didn't know they had those anymore :)
So work was, well, waiting around for no one to show up for a tour, but that meant I got to listen to the festive music in the Old Town Square, a colorful group of singers playing funky but whimsical songs about Jesus. Well.. you know.
Oh, and that reminds me, I came up with a cool new name for christmas, it is.. um.. shit, I think I forgot exactly how it goes already, one of those lying in bed half asleep inventions.
I remember. Magic Baby Saves the World holiday. It might sound silly, or even offensive to some.. but really, not that different from what those silver voiced youth were singing in our city tonight. Sorta.
Sigh.
It's time again. Time for me to muse about, ponder, and lament this particular version of the passing o the time. I could say the same old jazz that I always bang on about, the same time of year every year, how it's just so..
I mean, I'm not so put out by the fact that I'm as old as I am, in the way that I'm no longer young, spry, fresh, blooming, cute.. all those things that a lady bemoans the loss of.. and when I say I'm not put out I mean it's all too easy to believe, I don't get that slight shock when I stop and think, this is true. I'm not saying I like it, I'm not even saying I don't actively dislike it.. I'm not even saying it doesn't distress me quite a lot, and often to feel my weary bones and see my haggard face.. and see the (recently increased yet again) number after the "age" section.. because yes, I fucking hate that shit. I'm just not at all in denial there. 
What really astounds me is.. well, the way I am. This unestablished, disorganized, inexperienced, foolish, irresponsible and downright immature person. I don't have anything and I've done nothing. Well I've done stuff, but it's all over the place, and doesn't really count. Hard to explain. And I know a lot of people of mature ages are youthful and fun, but there's really something missing here, almost everyone I know, though they seem like a bit of a mess (that's quite a few people) have something about them, that one little grown up thing about them, that lets you believe they're in their 30s, or 40s. When I look at myself it's just.. I can't believe it. I couldn't believe it when I was 30.. and then at about 35 which seemed like such a fucking grown up age that it was just impossible I could be it, then 36.. 37.. and on :/
Like I said, or at least vaguely alluded, I say this every year so there's probably not much left to be said. So I'll see you next year. Or sooner if I have something to say :).
and something else.
It's a weird day. Monday, I think. Still 37 *snorts*.. and nothing particularly special going on. Actually I wouldn't be if I was presently in the time zone that I was born, but, doesn't really matter.
Strange times, still November, but almost December. So much going on and I have no idea whether I can say yay or nay or maybe, I just don't know. I asked for a few particular days off, but of course having to do that almost a week before the end of the month before the really busy with festive stuff month means you're going to miss out on securing a lot of important days. And I still don't know what those days will be, not even sure if the ones I asked for will be free, which do include the 25th, which for some strange reason I think was a popular request. Don't ask me why we're still open on that day. Don't know.
Anyway, rather dull at the mo, not much to write home about, except Cooley saw a pigeon and I spent the afternoon carrying some not heavy but particularly awkward items from another place to this one.
Think I'm done now.
Well, in my case anyway. Ok only sometimes. Well rarely, but it does happen.
Just finished editing one video, see post below, and now I just want to get my hands on more footage! I'm on an editing spree. I worked with some other earlier inferior footage (yes that's footage inferior to the footage used in the video I spoke of, it is possible) earlier on and it was surprisingly easy, compared to when I first got my hands on the aforementioned footage, which took me ages, though on and off, mostly off to edit.
I need more! It's a bit more difficult to actually get the footage, I've noticed, despite the enthusiasm when I speak to others that are involved in these projects, usually when we're drinking and such, that enthusiasm doesn't seem so great when it would be otherwise a good time to film. And it also means (sometimes) going outside, setting things up, doing things over again and other complicated things that just seem like work.
Oh well.. there will be more! At some point :/
It's a thing known as Black Friday in some parts of the world, meaning the first shopping day after Thanksgiving, in the all important leadup to Christmas, so parts of the world that celebrate thanksgiving er.. celebrate it.
This is not a part of the world that celebrates Thanksgiving, neither is the part of the world I come from, or where anyone I live with comes from (actually they do celebrate it but at a different time), but nevertheless, we went out in the eve to celebrate. Mostly to watch football, well he did, and I just hung out, ate some turkey, and had beers. So I celebrated it, in a way, therefore, it should be a kind of black Friday today for me too.
We got there early, so we could see both games, which are quite long. So that means a lot of beer. Yeah.. it's not the lightest most pleasant Friday.
*groans*
I did it.
I finished editing.. something.
It's no big deal I've just spent so long on it that it's kind of a big deal. Ok, when I say I've spent a lot of time on it, I mean, a lot of time on and off, and when I say on and off, I spent more time off due to some weird fear of this complicated technology (blushes at the thought) and various technical reasons that kept coming up, some due to inferior materials butmostly due to my inability to figure these things out, and partly due to a number of excuses I made not to do it, based on either of the 2 previous reasons, because of a) laziness, b) the aforementioned irrational fear of something that is actually quite simple.
Anyway, I have a thing, done. Not up yet but it will be.
I don't know if it's just me, but my google search pages have recently been coming up all.. messy. The first couple, indeed the ones that you usually notice most, the equivalent of eye height in the supermarket, the entries that you see.. in short, are all some kind of sponsored links, based on my area..
I don't like it. It looks messy and well.. I'd like THE MOST RELEVANT AND USEFUL LINKS TO BE THE ONES THAT COME UP FIRST THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
I mean, yeah, it's a free service and they gotta make money but.. this sucks. I do not approve and would like for this travesty to be rectified asap, imho.
Get on it Google!
I suppose I should just leave it then.
I hate going by more than a few days (whatever that means exactly) without writing. This is why I'm writing about not really having anything to write.
Sad isn't it?
It snowed. Well I think it did, judging from the light dusting of white stuff on the roofs. I think we're entering the season here I blog about nothing but the season.. I know it seems like I always do but at other times of the year when we get weather (or falling leaves) I occasionally mix it up with other stuff.
It's all weather from here on though.. except for the other season stuff, that of the silly variety which can in a way be put under the season umbrella, so there you go.
Weather blog, signing off.
For the past few weeks now, I have, upon being woken up between 4:30 to 6:00 by the kitty, going for my first morning er.. relieving.. and seeing the region of Vrsovice out the toilet window, covered in a mist, or fog. Depending on how early in the morning it is. And I think.. gee it's been foggy recently, but.. generally it lets up a bit and by the time I get out of bed properly at 8a.. er 10.. ok about 11 or 12, it's mostly gone.
The last few days there's been a bit of fog about, but also it's been quite sunny.. very nice for the weekend and for a visitor we've had here for a few days. Cold though.
This morning, I again, upon my first awakening, saw out of the window, a sea of mist. It was particularly thick, I thought. This was also the day I was going with our visitor to Vysehrad, up on the hill.. the site of the original castle of Prague.. and a whole bunch of other stuff. She had a bunch of stuff to do, shopping, post office, that sort of thing so I said I'd meet her later, in the afternoon.. it's better to give the fog some time to lift, as it usually does, and by that time, we'd have a bit of sun and some warmth.
Well.. everything went according to plan, got her stuff done and we met at our arranged time. Except for the fog bit.. still the same as early in the morning. We go up there, walk around and are freezing! Go through the artist's graveyard, see the psychadelic basilica, walk through the park.. and are pretty much ready to go somewhere warm and pleasant with food and beer.. but first we had to go to the lookout where you see a beautiful view of the city and the river and the castle.
We went to the lookout and well there are some very nice buildings diretlty in front of it. We saw the castle.. I mean I knew it was, think it was the castle.. I suppose it could have been another towery churchy thing, possibly was.. I don't really know.
That was about 3:00.. fog still hasn't lifted.
So, had an audition on the weekend. Probably could have been more prepared, definitely could have done better. I'll be rather surprised if I hear back from the peole at all but who knows.. there's a lot of bodies in this play and I might be invited to be part of a chorus or something... but I won't know until, who knows.
There's some other stuff going on, which I may or may not get in some way involved in.
That's all really.
Today is 11-11-11. For all of us, there's not too much way to rearrange that group of numbers. I wonder what it means.. *ponders*. It is a day of remembrance of course, for many *bows head and remembers* and in some places, including here in Prague a special day for weddings...
So.. was almost doing ok for a bit, and then I went and fucked up again...
I really like this time of year, strangely. I mean I never look forward to it so much during that time that summer is coming to an end, and I envisage and end to the warm, exciting fun filled days that actually haven't come around yet.. but, once it's fairly into September, with wacky wine festivals happening, and lots of birthdays and events and yes.. a very silly season (ok, I like it, sue me!) coming in the next months.. it starts to fee more.. festive.
sometimes, when I'm just sitting here, or on the tram, or doing the dishes or something that doesn't require much thought.. I start pondering my own life, myself, my personality, my habits.. all that stuff, and I get to thinking.. fuck, I'm so fucking immature. I can't believe I'm a fucking grown up. I mean, I know a lot of people are youthful, immature, stuff like that, and it's typical to not be as "mature" as people of the same age as their parent's generation but..
soon.
This month, I'm going to get things done.
Haven't been writing much, because.. well, because.
Apart from the kitty of course. Ok,so I'm not all alone. Wen you've got someone constantly bothering you for food, you can't feel too alone.
I should be grumpy, really, the weather is, well.. constant rain, I have a sore throat which probably means the next few days I'll be going through the whole set of cold related symptoms, there's not so much food in the house despite me doing a big shop last night, which I was able to do because I stupidly went early for my tour.. got the schedule wrong, and had 2 hours to hang about, probably contributing to the way I feel today, though it was actually relatively warm, and not raining at all.. and I didn't end up having a tour anyway.. *breathes*
but earlier on I was in Paris. Over the weekend I went..
To the fabulous city of Paris..
maybe.
For the weekend. Next weekend. Just been planning stuff, something I don't usually do, I mostly just show up at a place and wander around.. hope there's some accommodation available :) ok, I (or more likely whoever I'm with) usually take care of that.. but otherwise.
It's raining. Yeah.. nothing interesting has happened since the last thing so I'm talking about the weather. It changed.. well not really so much the other day when I lamented the unseasonal weather being over, it got back to being quite nice, and tolerably warm. And then yesterday. I knew it was colder, so on my way out I wore more layers, warmer clothing than I had done for some time. I was still too cold.
There are way too few occasions that the title sentence is appropriate for, but I just realized, that there is one, was one. I wish I'd thought about it 3 weeks ago just after said occasion but I didn't.
this spell of beautiful, unseasonal weather we've been having, at least today it was a little colder, and a lot greyer than of yore.. yore being the last week or so.. probably 10 days, at least all of October up til now. Oh well.. we had a good run.
it's a video of a bunny dancing. Yes, it is. From that thing I did on Saturday.
it's been very warm for October. Rather pleasant really.. actually, a little too hot sometimes, when one isn't prepared.. but overall quite nice.
Happy October all... it's been quite a nice start to the month here.. a lovely warm day, almost hot actually, especially for following a conga line down a major city square in the afternoon, though not so bad if you aren't wearing a furry bunny suit, which one person actually was. Oh.. I did that, btw, earlier today, following a bunny. Well it was a guy, in a bunny suit.
I mean, haven't achieved much. Not much to write about and for once I'm using it as an excuse to not write, as opposed to scribble down drivel.. that is excepting the current moment.
I have been falling a bit behind of late, re.. getting stuff out there, editing things, doing more things.. for no real reason other than I am me. There was a brief period back there where I did a bunch of stuff I was quite proud of, and a fair bit of it too... and then I went and rested on the tiny unit of laurels I managed to achieve.. and that's it. Even most of the stuff I did has come to nothing (so far) because I haven't gone through with the act of making it palatable for the wider world.. therefore it isn't out there.
Well shit. Yesterday was Cooley's birthday, and International Talk Like a Pirate day and what did I do? Well.. nothing. I felt fucking sick.. and you know the really fucked up thing about it? I hadn't even been drinking.. well, I had a few beers on Sunday night but, it wasn't that.
So. Am alive today and feeling quite fine. Yesterday the rain held out.. though it was promised, and it was quite a lovely, predominantly sunny, warm, mid almost late September day. And some of our friends showed up to meet us though others we didn't managed to co-ordinate our times with. Sorta missed the gladiator stuff, or rather didn't get to get into the stadium to see it in all it's glory due to the popularity of the contest.. can you imagine... in this day and age!
The wine harvest, is about my favourite time of year. It's not just because that's when all the burcak.. that is fresh wine.. er.. some drink made from the dregs of the grapes.. or something, is about.. actually I can't stand the disgusting shit. It's not just because it's autumn and I generally like autumn although it's still early and we're in that kind of still summer if the weather co-operates, and glum, dull weather without anything interesting about it, if it doesn't. No. It's because of the dress up.
Today I did something, I mean, not such a big deal but it's one of those things that I hope will spell a change in how things are done around here.. I mean, with me, for me, my life. I've said that about a lot of things recently, well... in general, and in fact about the very same thing I did today, or at least thought it, but..
So, had one of my "fucking sick without being able to do a damn thing all day" days.. yesterday, following, of course a night of going out and having to much fun..
Ah.. not much to say today.. nothing new, so I'll pass on some unusual and entertaining news from the world of nature..
I hope I'm learning something because this editing stuff is incredibly tedious and time consuming.. and the result, well.. I'm semi pleased with some of it, but it's really simple.. and crude, and not very accurate...
when you finally decide to take your life in your own hands and grab it by the horns so to speak.. the bull, or whatever..
The internet has been working crappily all day, sometimes not at all.. this has been vexing, vexing I tell you! I had all this stuff I intended to do and needless to say, I needed, well not the internet for most of it but the time that trying constantly to connect to the internet and make it work better cost me so...
One of the stuff, er things I planned on doing today, the "meeting and actually relating with other people" bit, well, will not be happening today, but that's so I can focus more on one of the other very important things o the day.. ok, partly because I'm afraid of people, and this, as has been mentioned, involves people. I mean I already have 2 tours tonight so my being around lots of people quota is used up, I'm afraid. There'll be more of these things in the future however, or at least they say so, which means they'll probably get around to doing another one in about a year, which will fizzle out and not happen again after that, but what can you do.
Yesterday, I did stuff. I said I would do stuff and stuff I did. What I did yesterday will all become evident later as I fix stuff and tweak stuff and.. well, you'll see. Maybe.
Doesn't mean you don't have to work! I mean, I'm all set to.. and I don't mean that silly stuff I do to round up a couple of crowns for myself.. although I'll be doing that too, both nights, but real work.. real important stuff, uploadable stuff, not just the ton of crappy photos I'm constantly putting out there, but a bunch of crappy videos as well!
No, not a fitting title for this post, as it has none. Not much anyway, it's more about the subject of substance.. I suppose that is a fitting title then. I used to dream about having a blog that was about stuff.. you know, things going on in the world, ideas, interesting stories that illustrate a wider subject, something universal, something important.
Last day o August, and last day of summer as far as I'm concerned.. I know here in the Northern Hemisphere the change of the seasons is always around the 21st or thereabouts but I always consider them for the first of the month, you can disagree all you like but that how it is.. so.. starting tomorrow, we are in Autumn.
Demon is now officially exorcised, for once and for all. I can wash my hands of it, sleeping soundly in the knowledge that it shall not return.. I can clean stuff up properly, knowing it won't get all messed up again and.. this weekend we should be able to do whatever we want to do, and not have to wait around for a bunch of dudes to fix it again.
Can you believe it the weather gods got it right! Temporarily at least, and even on a Sunday which is unusually lucky. It's been hotter than hell the last week or so, which you may have heard about.. well, yesterday the temperature dropped to below hot, or just a bit too warm, or just warm enough, or kinda cool to being, well, cold... at least comparatively, and raining. Lots..
I mean I knew it would, it returned before after the fixit dude came and fixed it, and the last time he did much the same thing, and besides.. demons never really leave...
Yeah, demon is back. So tomorrow finally a proper excor.. I mean plumber is coming. Now hopefully this time.. it will for once and for all be gotten rid of.
It's particularly impolite of it to always show up on the weekend, though.. damn demon. Methinks it's doing it on purpose.
The internet. It's quite annoying, it's been blessing me with about an hour or 2 of working kinda ok a day all this week, and I never know when it's going to go out completely again, it's quite vexing.. but at least it's something for me to moan about as I've been relatively clear of big fucked up things recently.. after getting rid of the demon for once and for the moment.. I mean there's still the heat but I've more or less exhausted that subject.
And fuck is it hot! Really fucking hot.
And.. it got me. I've been doing these tours for a while, been in the underground.. the really spooky bit lots and lots of times, and sometimes with very small groups.. and I'm never actually scared myself, despite trying to convince others it's so damn scary but..
Been a pretty good weekend, despite having to work, and the ongoing battle of the demon which returned, did I mention that? Well it was banished again this morning so we'll see how that goes.. however, in spite of all this, we've had a pretty good time these past 2 days o the weekend.
So, the demon was exorcised.. the other day.. after an evening when they came in and fiddled around, which didn't achieve much except for make water run into the flat downstairs, they came back, did something else and after that everything went smoothly.
Haven't done this for a while..
I shouldn't talk so soon but.. everything appears fine. Demon gone. There was a brief period where we thought this was going to be a long and bloody battle, the maintenance dude from the building came last night, I was out, working.. not the best night but not the point right now... and I came home and everything was apparently ok, with a date for him to come again today.
This demon is pissing me off. Haven't showered since.. er, the other day and will only be able to get myself basically clean before setting off to work tonight, which will set off a whole new mess in the bath, leaving it all fucked up, or me with a whole lot more work to get it halfway manageable for when the plumber/exorcist comes this evening. I know it shouldn't matter, it's his job to wade through gunk, but still... don't want to let it go too bad.
So, the demon is still in the pipes, still waiting for the plumber/exorcist to come by..
so no one called me.. another year of my drab existence before I get the chance to have a few days on a movie set.. *sighs*.. and yes I am trying to make this the shortest page on the blog ever.. why you ask?
well... actually I hear none, but there isn't anything else.. except the odd car whooshing by, no phone or anything though..
got one of them castings tonight, hopefully I'll get at least one film.. that'd be cool. Of course I've written it here and the law of the universe or stuff or whatever means that I probably won't.. o well.
The building I live in used to be the home of a quite important composer. I find that quite interesting. Carry on.
What the shortest post I've ever done is. Actually I never wonder that, I did just now though. *ponders*
If I didn't know better I'd think I was writing stuff just for the sake of filling up space.
Alright.. enough pissing about it's time to do stuff! yes.. I'm actually doing all that stuff that I'm supposed to be doing.. like, making lists of stuff that I'm going to get around to doing at some point and.. well.. I've done the list. *feels all proud and stuff* now I can have a rest.. and get on with the next stage when I... well I'll do that later at some point that doesn't matter.. the point is I've done stuff!!
So my ankle's still fucked up. Don't know if it's that bad but it's something that should last a while.. and I can't get anyone to cover my shift tonight, not a surprise because I'm doing a tour that only 2 other people do...
grrr.. this sucks. It can't be good for me.
So.. it's here. It's Monday, it's raining.. and raining and raining, I have a fucked up ankle from walking down my stairs while fucking with the phone yesterday before work.. then a 3 hour tour in the most rough cobblestoned area of Prague, and a run to the tram stop and my internet has been patchy up until right now and quite frankly, I don't see this little stretch lasting.
On the other hand.. I don't have to work tonight and I have a good excuse to not leave the house at all.. though my ankle isn't so bad right now.. internet is on (for now at least) and the sound of the rain pitter pattering outside is strangely soothing.
So there you go.
Once coming back to Prague it was hot for a while.. a bit too hot some days and to be sure I whined about that. Then it started raining... the end.
Well.. it's a little more nuanced than that, for about 2 weeks we've had this back and forth weather where it often rains some time during the day, and quite typically out of nowehere when the day's been quite nice.. so, unexpected for the most part, but it's been unusually mild.. even cold seeming at times. And raining more often than I'd like. Right now it's raining in that "I don't intend to stop anytime soon and you can stuff it" way.. which is particularly pleasing as it's my first weekend day off in ages.. and we're going out of the city today.. but whatev, what can you do.
Yes, there are things I don't like, my unusually happy sunny self actually on occasion grumbles about things.. vocally.. and even writes abou them!
kay.. so enough sarcasm. There are "literally" millions of things I don't like and despite the frequency of complaining on this blog I've only ever pointed out a small fraction of them, but today I'm going to focus on a few, that have been bothering me at the moment.
*People coming up to me as soon as I get to the Orloj, that is our "meeting point" for work. Some people may know I'm a tour guide, and well we need to get to the spot 20 minutes before to wait, greet people for the tour and try to entice more to join.. well, lately I've barely had time to put my umbrella up and sort out the coordination between umbrella, lantern and brochures I'm supposed to hold before someone pounces on me with tickets for the tour. It's annoying.
*Having to hold an open umbrella, lit lantern and hold brochures with 2 hands for 20 minutes at the meeting point before every tour. I actually don't need the lantern for every single tour, but it's still annoying to have to do all the rest.
*When people show up immediately upon my arriving at the meeting point, demanding my attention and then more people come, and people keep coming and coming... and it looks like I'm going to have this huge group that I'm going to have to shout to.. it really only bothers me at the time because either the group stops at a reasonable point, and when it's a large number it always turns out to be ok, but this still bothers me.
*When someone shows up at the last second wanting to go on a tour so I need to hold it all up to deal with their stuff, after standing there doing nothing for the last 10 minutes.
*Needing to get to the meeting point 20 minutes before a tour, and stand there while people show up. Yeah... I really dislike this part.. how could you tell?
Yeah that's it. For now.
*Waiting at the "meeting point" for work. We need to get there, at the Orloj, 20 minutes before the tour,
I'm feeling a bit blank at the mo, regarding.. I dunno, it's kind of blank. Not just what to write here, or what to write, create in general but.. I feel as though there's something that I can't put my finger on. In more ways than one.. ideas for stories, stuff I should be doing. You know.. like.. stuff.
Maybe I'm just imagining there's something where there isn't and that would explain why I can't access it, but then again.. maybe I'm missing something.
I'm not sure which I prefer.
I did it! I did the stuff.. well one of the things I planned to do today.. you know those things that should have been done a month or longer ago? Well I planned to do some today, and did one, and possibly even 2 of them.
I should feel satisfied about that because it might be a while before I get to feel this about anything again.
I also have the night off.. I like that even better.
I think.
So.. been a big year, new job, move, trip.. yeah, lots o stuff. It's always something, a reason not to get off my ass and get out there all pushy with agents and theatre companies and all that.. do more of my own thing, re film making, get this house looking like something grownups would live in.
Well.. we only moved in May, and it's a lot of work to move, as you may understand. and I had this new job, and all this training.. then we went to Canada, which took a lot of money and planning..
and then we came back and.. er.. I had this film, and more work and..
well.. I mean. Yeah I'm bored and life is meaningless and I have little to do except for go to work some evenings and there probably won't be another film very soon (especially if I don't get out there and promote) and we won't be going anywhere for a long time so...
I should do stuff.. I spose.
*tries desperately to think of another reason not to go through the effort of getting stuff in order*
Get back to you on that one.
So, last day of filming of my latest foray in the cinema world.. 'nother student film.. yes. This one was fun, gotta say.. like being the actual star for once, it's about bloody time I reckon. So.. today was one more scene.. getting a bit messed up and then some voice overs where I had to do some sexy talk and go on about how hot I am during which I felt very silly and more uncomfortable than I should be, being a professional and all.. well.. aspiring to be somewhat professional at this stuff.. o well.. need to do more stuff.. then I can be more comfortable with it all.. I think.
etc etc etc.
perhaps not here but in general.. but now I see I'm being cast opposite someone I know from work for this role.. the one where I play the aging unattractive woman meeting some super hot guy.. and well.. for fucks sake.. it's only a tiny step down from being the boring wife who has half a page dedicated to describing how unbelievably average she is, and then getting cast opposite someone who's 60....
Can you believe it, our toilet door just locked itself from the inside. Well.. it did last night, and it's still locked despite the fiddling around and even some professional work from a few people.
Actually got cast in a movie.. woo hoo! About time.. been ages since I was cast as a boring unattractive woman who's husband wants to murder her... last year, on the coldest day in December.. *sighs*
the seemingly insignificant stuff, the minor points... that really piss me off. And the stuff that seems to matter to others.. like, some pissing about with lanterns, that isn't really my fault but I still get blamed for being useless.. I do a shit hot tour, and the people love it but.. she doesn't know that, she just sees me not able to light it, because it was fucked up, and then almost leave it behind. And then some assholes complain about the tour... because some idiots at the hotels that are selling it misrepresent it.. yeah they name me, saying I was "unconvincing" whatever that means, but the other people on that particular one thought I was brilliant, so obvs they're just saying that because they want to complain.. but, still looks like I fucked up, another black mark against my name even though, yet again, I fucking rocked the bit that really matters...
