I'd be studying, working, doing stuff..

but I don't know what to do.

This is actually valid for once. I don't know what to do. I really don't, because of various things I might be doing, other things that might suit that better that don't fit with other things, and possibly minor but maybe more serious obstacles that may or may not be int he way of some of these things.

I just don't know. So here I am rambling about it, vaguely. Instead of doing whatever it is I should be doing and would be if I could figure it out. Actually I probably wouldn't be.

Maybe later.

Ah summertime..

This is the sort of thing that goes on. :)

Whooshh..

This time of year sure is fun.. one week of making movies.. well, an evening, the next day, the next morning and then an evening a week later, picking up my mother, seeing a charming Shakespearean play in a beautiful outdoor theatre, seeing my mother off the next day after trying to find clothes that don't suck with her.. (seriously, what's up this year, I mean, I am really hard to please but I don't remember it being this bad last time I bothered to try shopping) then a music festival the next day and.. yeah the aforementioned movie shoot at the end of it all.. done with those for now.. and then.. oh yeah. Pretty much it though I did see an interesting bunch of shorts last night from some local filmmakers.

Been fun. For now it seems to be slowing down.. but that gives me more time to do what I should be doing.. (getting work.. you know, actual work, getting our own show not so much off the ground but putting an actual clip together or at least rehearing for something) rather than.. whatever it is I'm doing. *tries to figure out what I've been doing*

Yeah, it's good to have some time to catch up. I am doing that.. really. Sort of.

Thanks, weather gods..

Just keep it up.

Summer is here, finally. I know the official beginning was 2 days ago.. something that I just officially became aware of but vaguely knew before.. (isn't it weird that midsummer is the beginning of summer, it makes no sense! what the hell northern hemisphereans) but it's finally warm and nice and not overcast all the time and only rains when it storms which is often if not usually if not exclusively in the evening.. and I quite like it.

Last night it was particularly welcome.. in the outdoors under the stars (actually under the still shining very brightly sun, right in my face if you want to be specific) at the open theatre in Vyšehrad..watching A Midsummer Night's Dream. Worked perfectly. Play was pretty good as well, despite the seating by the side of the stage which had us looking right into the sun for the first act..

So anyway, still nice, still warm, not raining. I'd just like it to carry on like this for a while.

And the sun sets..

on this, the longest day of the year.. Northern Hemisphere, 2012. Yes, you're right. That is if you were thinking.. er.. isn't it usually the 21st of June that's the solstice? I mean.. I guess it isn't the same every year but isn't it usually the 21st. Well it is. At least I think so.. but 2012 for some astronomical reason.. it's on the 20th, which is today. So happy longest day everyone. I mean, and shortest day if it is for you.. not sure if the exact opposite is true.. but if it is happy that one.

That means summer is here officially. I think it had a head start a few days ago.. been hot, also rainy, sometimes a bit cooler than hot and a bit overcast at times.. but that's to be expected.

Oh.. done with film #2.. not bad.. only Wednesday and already have 2 films under my belt. I mean.. not literally..

Still another one to go in about a week. *feels all proud of self and stuff*

*feels all productive and stuff*

Been working all day.. well from 10 to 4ish, with a lot of sitting around.

Certainly worked hard last night that's for sure.. *suppresses a smirk* hey.. that was ACTING.. you pervs.. it wasn't what it looked like at all.

Actually it was, with a film crew and bunch of people around.. it looked like a film was getting made and in fact a film was getting made. I was in that film.

Today another film was being made, I was in that film as well. Not bad for an evening and the next day's work.

Off to work..

very soon. I'm in a movie.. *gets slightly smug and stuff*

Of course it's no big deal but I'm happy to be doing something.. it's like.. ages. And yeah, a month and a half is ages particularly when the last work consists of no lines at all not that I'm complaining..

wow, that really does seem like ages ago.

I'm playing a "lady of the night" put in quotes because I like putting things in quotes. Bit of a departure from my early 19th century nurse with the bordering on nun's habit costume. It's the first time in ages I've been cast in that particular role..

And that's not all, I'm doing 2 others as well. I remember a summer years ago when I was in about 4 of these, very busy, feeling very popular like I might be good at this and possibly going somewhere. Well.. we know how that turned out (and if you don't know it turned out pretty much nothing) but, it's good to have this happen once in a while.

I should enjoy it, I probably won't be doing this much work again for another 4 years or so.

I shouldn't say anything.

So I won't. There's just something that might be happening, probably will at this point, and still a tiny possibility that some other things might as well.. I mean it'd be nice, but one can't be greedy, especially when one is me.

It's nothing big, but one again reminding that I'm me and stuff that isn't big is big when you're me. I'm looking forward to it though.. bout time.

Oh yeah.. weather is still shit... what the fuck happened to summer I mean where the fuck is the summer we haven't even had one yet unless you count that bit back in April which was before summer even started. Hopefully it'll be like.. er tomorrow. And it will stick with it.

Musings and such.

It kind of sucks that, when you have something bothering you, whether it's a sore throat, some dreaded event, unbearable cold..it overshadows everything. All else can be just fine, even good, but you can't stop worrying, or aching. 

Then it goes away and you don't notice. It's not like.. everything is normal and dull, but not bad.. you're sitting there thinking.. "isn't it wonderful, I'm not sniffling and sneezing"..  I mean.. ok, once the dreaded event if over.. you get warm, there's relief for about a minute, then it's just fine. Other things like being sick.. a cough or something, it goes away, and one day you realize "hey" my throat's not all fucked up anymore in that weird way that keeps going away and coming back and I don't have a cough either.. awesome! Now I can just get on with things and enjoy it all" No. Well not me anyway.. I just say.. oh yeah, it's gone. Whatever. 

Of course, there's always something else to annoy/be worried about. That is if you're me. Not that I'm complaining or anything.

Enough to get a bit parched..

Some doggies yesterday for the Prague Veggie Parade 2012. Was a fine day.. mostly, bit hot, bit cool, bit in between and the parade was long for a lazy ass person like myself but pretty cool.

And the afterparty in the park was, well it was hanging out in the park.

Oh and go vegan! I mean.. if you want.. or as close as you can.. *not exactly, well not at all vegan myself*

Bla

I've had the blas for the last couple of days.. might still have them. I dunno, on and off. Another thing showed up which I was not at all pleased with, which is not only highly impractical to me, especially considering the circumstances I'm already in, but didn't do a whole lot for my psychological well being, as it also was related to feelings of general uselessness and pointlessness which are also related to the impracticality which this new issue   adds.

Still.. I feel kinda ok right at the moment.. still lagging on the other thing I'm supposed to be doing, and another thing that's supposed to be happening isn't happening or is very slowly.. and we're still way behind, by the most modest of schedules on our film making careers.. but it's a Saturday, it's not raining though it probably will at some point and ti's overcast, and it's going to be an eventful day, maybe so..

whatever, I think I'm just used to this.

I feel like I've visited here before.

It seems as if I spend my life waiting, sometimes..no, not exactly that. It seems as if I spend pretty much all of my time just about to get into.. something, no, it's not really that either.

Well again and again I feel like I feel right now, which is nothing in particular, and overall nothing. When I stop to think I realize how much time has passed since the last time I thought about it and I remember how I thought that by this time I'd be getting on with it, or on with it. And then the time before that where I felt the same..

Eventually these things happen. Or they don't and I do something else instead, but it always comes up again.. the same thing.. about something different but it doesn't matter so much if whatever it is never happens.. the waiting, is pretty much the same. Again and again.

Just finished..

writing an em. That is, an email.. pronounced "eem". It seemed like a logical way of saying it being a person who is naturally drawn to shortening words, like many out there in this day and age. Makes me wonder why it hasn't caught on yet. I think it should. It sounds kind of obnoxious and annoying but I reckon people would get used to it. If I say it and write it and generally use it a lot, maybe it will. And it will be all because of me.

I may achieve nothing else during this lifetime, but if I get a couple of people to occasionally use a shortened version of an oft used word, it's better than nothing.

It might be a while since I've done this.

I might be at least a month since I've whined about the weather. Or at least a week and a half, which in either case is kind of a record.

Well, here I am. Whining. Weather gods!!! It's supposed to be summer. Summer!

I may have mentioned this in my last post.. I vaguely remember something like it, now that I think of it.

In any case. This whole.. warm, really nice though sometimes hot for a day or 2, and then back to being cool/cold/rainy for a week or 2 weeks and then finally warming up again for a day or 2 and then going back to being cool/cold/rainy for a week or more and then when it gets warm again it's only for a day or 2, just to go back to being cool/cold/rainy for a week, or 2 weeks, or even more?

I'm over it. Sort it out please.

Plodding along..

Not the most perfect beginning of summer or just the month of June if you interpret it another way. It's not necessarily bad but.. things are slightly.. meh.. still getting over this sore throat/cough thing that eases up a bit then comes back and hasn't been so bad for a few days but I thought that a few days ago the other night was.. grrr.

A bit of drama here the other day.. well not so much drama as, something sucked, and it was all my fault and that's over now but it cost me, well cost.. and that cost will be transferred to me in various ways and I'm not particularly pleased with the whole deal in more ways than one.

Still "studying" if I ever mentioned I was, finally got my info for the tours I'm training with and now it's time to get ready for them.. taking it's time. Who knows how long it will be before I'm ready to actually work. Could really use the money you know.

It rained today. It seems kinda nice now but, not that warm. I could complain more but I think I'll stop here.