Ok, so there's still nothing going on..

I mean, haven't achieved much. Not much to write about and for once I'm using it as an excuse to not write, as opposed to scribble down drivel.. that is excepting the current moment.

It's been nice, actually. That's all.

Alright where's that horse?

I have been falling a bit behind of late, re.. getting stuff out there, editing things, doing more things.. for no real reason other than I am me. There was a brief period back there where I did a bunch of stuff I was quite proud of, and a fair bit of it too... and then I went and rested on the tiny unit of laurels I managed to achieve.. and that's it. Even most of the stuff I did has come to nothing (so far) because I haven't gone through with the act of making it palatable for the wider world.. therefore it isn't out there.

Well.. gotta get back to doing it, is all. No more excuses! Not that I really made any excuses, I just didn't do it. Well now I will.. soon.

*smirks at title of previous post*

Well shit. Yesterday was Cooley's birthday, and International Talk Like a Pirate day and what did I do? Well.. nothing. I felt fucking sick.. and you know the really fucked up thing about it? I hadn't even been drinking.. well, I had a few beers on Sunday night but, it wasn't that.

I think it was something I ate, and I know exactly what, later on, after having been called in for a tour, I felt a little bit strange in the tummy, but nothing too drastic.. well, no tour, as it was raining and it is our least popular tour, so I met Erik at this sports bar, hung out, had 2 beers.. and went home.. well we gorged on some chips and guacamole.. but I don't think it was that.

Well. yesterday I was ok when I woke up, well, mostly ok, feeling a little odd but nothing big, and I was all ready to go get Cooley some birthday goodies, and do a whole bunch of pirate stuff.. *take a few dorky photos, is about all, nothing to exciting* but some time in the afternoon, I started feeling crummy, really really crummy, and I spent the rest of the day just lying around. Fortunately I didn't have a tour.

Well anyway, that sucked.

*feels just fine and stuff*

So. Am alive today and feeling quite fine. Yesterday the rain held out.. though it was promised, and it was quite a lovely, predominantly sunny, warm, mid almost late September day. And some of our friends showed up to meet us though others we didn't managed to co-ordinate our times with. Sorta missed the gladiator stuff, or rather didn't get to get into the stadium to see it in all it's glory due to the popularity of the contest.. can you imagine... in this day and age!

However.. did have a few wacky incidences.. the hilarity of explaining to a friend where we were sitting, for almost an hour and 5 phone calls.. the trauma of seeing some parents freak out as their kid.. well.. I dunno, had some problem, and they called for the ambulance and a doctor and oh my, how stressful. He turned out to be ok..

Oh and we saw an elephant. This would have been the highlight, if a bulldog, who seemingly at first seemed like a very placid, nay, lazy dog, got a bit crazy at some guy in a toga who came around promoting, or whatever he was doing and they had a bit of a tussle..

weird day. Stayed late-ish.. had a fair of o burcak but not too much, and.. that's it.

Ok.. I'm a beer person but..

The wine harvest, is about my favourite time of year. It's not just because that's when all the burcak.. that is fresh wine.. er.. some drink made from the dregs of the grapes.. or something, is about.. actually I can't stand the disgusting shit. It's not just because it's autumn and I generally like autumn although it's still early and we're in that kind of still summer if the weather co-operates, and glum, dull weather without anything interesting about it, if it doesn't. No. It's because of the dress up.

In one of our local parks.. the one with the vineyard in the middle.. one that is now even closer to us than it ever was before.. they have a theme every year.. medieval.. early 20th centuraly.. Bacchanalia! That's this year.. so tomorrow, we're going to wander down to our local park at the end of the street, and hang out with gladiators and do ancient roman stuff.. and whatnot. And drink horribly sweet fresh wine that's really sweet and terribly potent in plastic cups. It's gonna be awesome.

Alright, here we go.

Caption..

Ok, that does it.

Today I did something, I mean, not such a big deal but it's one of those things that I hope will spell a change in how things are done around here.. I mean, with me, for me, my life. I've said that about a lot of things recently, well... in general, and in fact about the very same thing I did today, or at least thought it, but..

I mean, I've been moving backwards the past few days, about the last week really. After one weekend of getting shit done.. I lapsed back into.. well not much, nothing in fact, and not doing a whole lot with what I did, ie, the usual, but today at least I did something sorta official, and I'm hoping.. for once, finally, this time, against all fucking odds, that this will make a difference.

And I'm putting this here so in a month, or 2 months.. or more, I will be able to look back at this and see, just how much it changed things.

Or not, which will be a pretty typical experience of looking back over the numerous blog posts where I hoped for things to happen.. over about 5 years now.. I think it's more :/.. oh whatever. What's the difference.

The big recovery..

So, had one of my "fucking sick without being able to do a damn thing all day" days.. yesterday, following, of course a night of going out and having to much fun..

Yes, again. It happens over and over but somehow, at that point in the night when I should just stop drinking, where if I just quit then and there I'd be maybe not shining and healthy in the morning, I would at least have at most a minor headache, and not feel like getting up too early, but.. I kept going. Seemed like a good idea at the time or at least the very thought of a horrible next day didn't occur to me. Had other stuff on my mind, like.. well, there was stuff.

And I was scheduled to work yesterday, 2 tours. Not until the evening, but when I have these days, they go all day.. however, I'm usually good to do something by night time, and I thought I was, I left to go there, feeling a bit woozy on the tram but thought it might be ok, then I walked to the office and knew that there was no way I could work. At best I'd be very low key, probably not loud enough, and not able to act as though I was in a good mood, and at worst I would have made a very embarrassing and unprofessional spectacle of myself. Not a good thing, so, it being one of the less popular tours, and no one having booked it yet, I was able to go home.. and someone covered the other one. Things were better after that, just due to not having to worry about such things.. but it took a long time before I felt able to so much as drink water without feeling sick.. but I did, I was so thirsty.. and food, well, it's the first time in ages I've gone a whole 24 hour period without eating a single thing.. I was pretty hungry this morning.

I'm sure you really wanted to know all that.

The wonderful world out there..

Ah.. not much to say today.. nothing new, so I'll pass on some unusual and entertaining news from the world of nature..

Drunk Swedish elk found in apple tree near Gothenburg

Apparently this is quite common in Autumn when there are a lot of apples around. Well.. not the tree bit, just drunken elk, wandering about, stumbling into things, falling over and being beligerent, that sort of thing..

the world is funny, sometimes :)

Kay.. w.t.h...

Here's something I finished recently...

still got a long way to go.. :/

Learnin...

I hope I'm learning something because this editing stuff is incredibly tedious and time consuming.. and the result, well.. I'm semi pleased with some of it, but it's really simple.. and crude, and not very accurate...

I'm just hoping that about 4 videos from now I'll be able to look back at this one and see such a marked improvement that.. well. I'll be pleased. I think I'll need a better editor though, and better material to work with.. I mean, the stuff I've filmed so far.. I'm sure a seasoned editor would be able to improve it, but make it into something.. if they used only effects, possibly..

probably need a better computer, and a whole lot more expertise, a few months of film school, at least.. and some talent..

or I can just keep trying and time will improve it.. just a tiny bit. One hopes.

The things you find yourself doing..

when you finally decide to take your life in your own hands and grab it by the horns so to speak.. the bull, or whatever..

yeah, I'm halfassedly sorta doing something like that. Actually did something just now that I've been putting off for ages, for no real reason.. not a big thing, the sort of thing anyone else would have done the minute they realized they had to, and many times over but..

anyway now I'm downloading polka music..

there is a reason for it

So now you decide to work!

The internet has been working crappily all day, sometimes not at all.. this has been vexing, vexing I tell you! I had all this stuff I intended to do and needless to say, I needed, well not the internet for most of it but the time that trying constantly to connect to the internet and make it work better cost me so...

oh whatever here's a pic, haven't posted one in a while.

Kay, so some stuff.

One of the stuff, er things I planned on doing today, the "meeting and actually relating with other people" bit, well, will not be happening today, but that's so I can focus more on one of the other very important things o the day.. ok, partly because I'm afraid of people, and this, as has been mentioned, involves people. I mean I already have 2 tours tonight so my being around lots of people quota is used up, I'm afraid. There'll be more of these things in the future however, or at least they say so, which means they'll probably get around to doing another one in about a year, which will fizzle out and not happen again after that, but what can you do.

Still doing the other thing though. I mean, I intend to.

Still at it.

Yesterday, I did stuff. I said I would do stuff and stuff I did. What I did yesterday will all become evident later as I fix stuff and tweak stuff and.. well, you'll see. Maybe.

Today I have more stuff to do.. o so much stuff, stuff upon stuff upon stuff. Meeting and actually relating with other people is involved, and that's not just the "job" bit, which I have a more heavy shift of tonight btw.. it's, well something to do with stuff that's actually important. You.. (yes I do mean you, singular) know what I mean by this, I reckon.

And.. well.. hopefully I'll get something else done too, this will be avaiable to (yes, you) the public at some time soon-ish in the future.

Yep.. that's wot I've been doing and will be doin.. I'm sure I'll post more about this later...

Just because it's the weekend..

Doesn't mean you don't have to work! I mean, I'm all set to.. and I don't mean that silly stuff I do to round up a couple of crowns for myself.. although I'll be doing that too, both nights, but real work.. real important stuff, uploadable stuff, not just the ton of crappy photos I'm constantly putting out there, but a bunch of crappy videos as well!

I didn't mean it like that.. I mean awesome, incredible fantastic videos. Alright then ok videos, well I don't know, but I intend to film stuff.. tons of stuff. You read it here! So, I here, in this moment, that in the next week I will be uploading tons and tons of moving picture type stuff with my voice and me doing stuff that's .. well, just that.

There I said it!

Substance.

No, not a fitting title for this post, as it has none. Not much anyway, it's more about the subject of substance.. I suppose that is a fitting title then. I used to dream about having a blog that was about stuff.. you know, things going on in the world, ideas, interesting stories that illustrate a wider subject, something universal, something important.

I think I had a sorta half assed version of that once.. it's been about 4 years or more since I've been writing about nothing but what's going on, or what's not going on with me, or the occasional pondering of why I have nothing to write about and isn't it crap.. ie, you're reading it.

I suppose it shouldn't matter.. one can blog about whatever one wishes to blog about, and if people wish to read, they can.. I just wish.. I dunno.. I did it a bit better.. and stuff.