I'm not such an awful person to be around then...

I'm just boring.

Another class last night. It was quite an entertaining one, some funny stuff there. You're not supposed to aim to entertain in these classes but some of our class member's characteristic wit and star qualities shone through regardless.

Mine was boring. It went reasonably well, but it just plodded along. None of the exercises I've done have been amongst the more interesting in the class. I was having a tendency to (quite unfairly) blame it on the person I was acting with, the way they reacted didn't allow me to bring the scene to a greater height. That's what I was telling myself, but after a while it gets old. Yesterday my scene was with someone who's known for having funny scenes so I couldn't blame him. The problem is obviously me, even the people who are really interesting the rest of the time are boring when they're with me.

Fucking boring. Fuck! That's just... fucked! Fuck it! I'd rather just do everything wrong, and made an idiot of myself. Anything but be boring!

Well that's not actually true. I want to be the best at the Meisner Technique and at acting in general, come across as frightfully clever, devilishly sexy and be very interesting.

And fucking funny!

Dammit, how does one who is possessed of such a superior wit to that of the average attention seeker become such an insufferable bore in the presence of a real live audience?

Don't answer that.