Down to basics.

It's word o' the day time. It's not that I don't have anything to write about, it's just I don't have anything I want to write about to write about, so I'm writing about this.

banausic \buh-NAW-sik\  , adjective:
Serving utilitarian purposes only; mechanical; practical: architecture that was more banausic than inspired.
Banausic to the point of drudgery? Sometimes. Often tedious? Perhaps.
-- David Foster Wallace, The Pale KingTo me, the Venetians whom I have met, seem to be merely inadequate, incondite,banausic, and perfectly complacent about it.
-- Frederick Rolfe, The Armed Hands

Seems very.. practical, frugal, austere.. er.. yeah that kind of thing.

Preparing to be very busy very soon. For more than one reason.

Totally prepared.

I am.

For my upcoming gig as part of the "crew" on a movie. Seriously, I totally know what I'm doing, got everything I need, have read up on everything, prepared every way I can and..

ok so I'm not and haven't and don't. But I'm sure it'll be fine. At least I hope it'll be fine.

Oh those kitties...

A kitty shot for a Thursday.. you can caption it if you like.



no pressure...

*waits for response*

Guess that's over then.

I thought summer was over for a bit, then it came back again. Didn't last. Oh well.. at the moment it's raining which is to be expected, I suppose. At least if it has to rain for most of a month it should get it out of the way before shooting begins.. yes, shooting. I'm working on a movie... and it's starting very soon. I can barely believe it but, I need to, and prepare, and get ready, and have everything rea.. I think I kinda said that already.. point is, I need to get stuff.. yeah I said it already. I just need to, so I'll go and do that now..

Moving On.

I have no idea what is happening with this "job"thing I thought I had. Possibly nothing. I'm going to assume that unless I hear otherwise, in the mean time, I do have a job, one which will take up all of next month and will take a lot of concentration and.. and, well it is more important than any other I've done recently, and more the sort of thing that is meaningful to me, so, time to get up to date on that and prepare myself as much as I can.

*goes and does that*

I thought I was standing here, but I might be over there, or somewhere.

Well after the other day, er, some time next week I knew where I stood, at least to a degree. Then I had to deal with a lot of bullshit which I did't want to deal with and well, haven't really. Now, I'm still worrying about the largely undealt with bullshit and on top of it this knowledge about what was going on and exactly what my status is.. is sorta.. something. I don't know. No one tells me anything. I figure I should have some message by now, but I don't, for whatever reason.

So I'm just waiting, again.

Lights, Camera and..

Can you just move to the left there please? And wait a minute while I adjust the camera. Action.. cut, cut, can we do that again, problem with the sound. Etc.

Actually it went pretty smoothly, just a small part in a student film the other day. Was quite fun.

Oh the weight..

It's like, no sooner do I get one weight off my shoulders, I get 2 or more to replace it, and that just makes all the rest of it, the stuff that's always there, buzzing in the background more prominent.

There's just too many things.. too many things. Now for most people these things would be a) not that big a deal, and b) for the most part non-existent and only come up every now and again and one at a time and c) be different things which may be annoying but less of a problem because.. well because. I suppose mostly because they're their things and not my things, but they'd be things that don't require a whole lot of explanation on why you don't have this, or why didn't you do this before, or what have you been doing all this time, and what have you been doing? that sort of thing. and the reason is that other people, that is not all people, possibly not even most people behave like grownups when they're like.. grown up, and don't let these things get like this.

And yes, I find it vexing. As soon as I've taken care of one of these, which may or may not go smoothly, then there are others. And once I've taken care of all of the stuff related to this, there will be other things, things that are already there, and certainly there will be new ones.

There are just too many things.

The next step.

I got answers. I know where I stand now. I have things to do before things go smoothly though, and I'm not even at the point where I train, get to know what I'm doing, do it long enough that I get comfortable with it all.. no, I need stuff, official stuff, stuff that most grownups have and know how to get without hassle but that I don't have, and have major problems getting done, and even majorer problems getting to the point where I even think about it let alone look it up on the internet just to discover the website isn't taht helpful and I will need to go through a bunch of hoops and it will cost money and there's certainly not enough time and that's just for one of about 4 things.

Fucking papers, fucking employers need fucking papers.

So there's that. And then there's the thing for the whole of next month which I'mill prepared for, and this thing with people I know and arranging stuff which.. I don't know.

I'm doing a film tomorrow, just a small role in a student one. That will be fun. Still need to scrap up something for a costume though. They want "elegant businesslike" or s0mething.. as if I have anything remotely like that..

I'm tired.

And need to work. I might have a job, I might not have a job. Nevertheless I am working, have been/will be. Will I get paid, how long will it be? Will I receive anything today at all.. I don't know any of these things.

I am tired though and would like for this period whatever it is, whatever it will bring me, to be over.

I'd kind of like to know stuff.

We're doing it..

We're actually doing it!

*goes quiet and stuff*

*all will be revealed*

*well something will be revealed*

*not so much revealed as much as something that has been mentioned often, both very vaguely and with some description might come to fruition soon*

I may be speaking too soon but.. it's a possibility.

Oh and I didn't screw up anything the other day, not so much because I'm not a fuckup, but because I didn't really do anything, but I still have a chance to screw up.. doesn't matter so much.

And I should be donning a drab grey suit soon.. if I'm lucky :)

Ah even more new stuff to monumentally fuck up...

For you (assuming there is a you, any you reading, that wish to scold me for my seemingly constant negativity).. fuck off.. its how I am, deal with it!

Kay?

Ok, so.. trying another new job which if it tryout goes well will be a new job, I guess, tomorrow. I mean it should be pretty simple, but.. you know.

No movies this month.. *crys* but I spose I can live with that and the fact that the only reason I was in even a single one last month was because I was "literally" the only person who showed up for the casting.. because.. well I'll be too busy to think about it. And really.. whatevs.. I'm uncastable I've known that forever.. I know I'm good though, and now that I'm working on my own projects it matters less. Well, if anything ever happens with those projects. I mean.. I'm sure it will.

So, tomorrow I'm busy all day. After that, who knows. Possibly nothing else until August which at this point I'm all booked up for and that's the one that I'm most anxious about because.. well, it's damn 'portant.. and I really really really want to fucking rock that. I mean, I know I will. Maybe.

I guess I was right.

I think I was right. That's all.

Yep.. it makes a difference.

So just got back from another casting.. for the student films which I am often-ish a part of. Did the same a month ago which yielded pretty good results... of course, a particularly low turnout then so.. that can explain how that all happened.

And here I thought it was cos I was so damn.. well good. Doesn't matter, I was bloody good in the movies I was in and I have those to show for now.. today I was thrust into a pretty harrowing kind of scene.. here I am prepared to do something silly and goofy.. but whatevs.. I don't know if I was good.. I wasn't bad, not really bad.. but it remains to be seen if I was good enough, look right and if there isn't someone else just a bit righter for any of these movies...

would be good to be in one.. apart from for the obvs reasons I can get a start on practicing my big crew job next month... driving a lot of people crazy in the process but.. ya know.

If nothing else it was nice to get picked to do something youngish even if it was just as a placeholder.. after being cast as a mother and all that last month. It probably doesn't mean anything but.. it's still a moment of joy for me.

I appear to have a purpose.

Ah, the long weekend, planned to be so productive, so full of weird, wild and wacky situations, turned out to be a whole lot of sitting around here, doing what I usually do which is.. um.. *tries to think of what I usually do*

I typed up and rewrote a script. Well this was one I've had for a while but I finally rewrote it again and almost got the scene filmed but.. didn't. Met with the "company" talked about meeting again and really doing something this time! That second meeting didn't happen.

Oh well... I did attend a meeting for a real movie that is really going to be made and cleared up my "role" in that one a bit.. I put that in quotation marks because I don't mean it as literally a role, which one might think is what I would be doing on the set of a movie, seeing as acting is sorta what I do, and anything else on a film, not so much, but his time I'm crew. How it happened I'm not sure.. one of those, you know people, you work with them on one thing, it leads to being somewhere else and working on something else with them.. so it's kinda cool. It looks like this will be actually happening.. it's rather exciting really. I certainly am in the position to learn a lot but I know I can do this though it isn't without it's difficulty quotient.

Interesting to see how it will all turn out.

Do robots have bad vision or something?

Why is it when you get asked to prove you're not a robot when posting on a site like.. oh, Blogger, say, they give you some code that's FUCKING INDECIPHERABLE!!! Well, sometimes, some sites are worse than others.. but I mean.. can robots read code? I thought these programs automatically spammed stuff.. I guess they're able to read text but you could have an image that is written in you know, readable text or something.. am I wrong? I must be wrong.. why would they put real humans through this if it wasn't necessary.. I mean, they wouldn't would they, that would be silly. Wouldn't it?

And now for the weekend..

But it's not the weekend i hear you say. Well it is here, we have today and tomorrow off.. just in time for the actual weekend.. so, yep, starts today.. *looks a bit smug and stuff*

It's a pretty hot one hear and possibly is where you are as well.. so here's something for a bit of refreshment..

If that's not your style, you might prefer this.

They found it!

The Higgs Boson. It's a particle, or something. Pretty clever of them to find it as I understand it's pretty small. people seem pleased, I guess this is a big thing.

*has no idea what it's about really, wonders if one should publicize one's utter ignorance like this, does anyway*

in science news ;)

I need to get a hat.

Good for keeping the sun away from the face. Well, a certain kind of hat is. The cool looking ones not so much and that's the kind I want. I probably need more than one actually. Quite a few.. looks like I'll be wearing many hats in the near future.. *trails off without really getting to any point*

*sweats*

Well.

Summer has certainly arrived.. in a big way. Right now it's raining, kinda heavy, maybe stormy.. fine with me,  just got in and missed the worst of it, though it may not have been so bad, as it's still pretty warm.. hot even.

Yesterday was certainly the hottest day of this year, and likely the hottest for quite a few years and of course it was a day of an outing out of the city, which involved a lot of walking to and from out destination, as well as around our destination. It was good though, a beautiful castle that was the residence of the man who got himself shot and started a war which changed the world.. Konopište.. if you want to be a bit more direct. Very nice, though the castle and grounds can probably be enjoyed more extensively on one of those days it's nice to walk around.. you know, some lovely gardens which a sweating couple was getting married in, nice, but very washed out in the light.. and way too hot to walk around, if we'd been able to..

Still, a very nice day, and a I learned a lot, something that sadly is not so typical of my weekends. The evening was better suited to walking and we tried it again after dark but the fatigue from earlier kept it to a minimum.

Today was cooler, particularly by the evening, and again met up with the same people for a walk around our own lovely city, from up on the hill where the castle is, down the hill, across the Charles Bridge with a few starts and stops because of some erratic rain.. and into a lovely pub just in time for it to get real heavy.

Well we still had to get home, and managed to run across the road to shelter, and then across again to a crowded tram which got us home in time for.. well, we didn't have far to go so didn't get too wet, but it either  is raining like it was or even heavier..

So that's it, my weekend complete with weather report. If anyone still was reading this blog, I guess that probably takes care of them.

Oh and there was a European cup final on this evening. I think Spain won.