Just because you haven't heard me grumbling enough..

I'm sick.

Not too sick, but sick enough. The other night I started to feel a tickle in my throat, and yesterday when I woke up it was sore. It wasn't too sore, and didn't seem to get worse or have anything else accompanying it by the evening so I hoped it would just fade away, but during the night I couldn't sleep much because my throat was bothering me, and when I woke up it was worse and accompanied by a headcold, and I was starting to get a bit sniffly..

I blame the weather. It was really warm one day and I thought it might be spring already, so I've been going out with milder weather clothes on, when apart from that one day it hasn't been warmer. I just wished it too much. Oh well.

So today I had to go out to do stuff and it was raining, which didn't help much, but I'm drinking tea. I can't stand tea so the fact I'm drinking it means I must be sick.

I know this is all frightfully fascinating but there's absolutely nothing else to talk about. Well there is but I don't want to talk about it because as a result of telling it then there will really be nothing to talk about. So I won't talk about it.

Something

This evening I'm doing something. Something that could lead to something that I would quite like. I'm not going to say what it is because if I do nothing will come of it. And after this something I might talk to some people. I won't tell you about that either, just in case that doesn't come to anything either, even though in the past that part has usually worked out, recently I've been quick to tell everyone about it so of course, the thing didn't end up happening.

I'm also in contact with someone else who should be contacting me soon about something else. This is also something that can be of benefit to me, but I'm not going to tell anyone about it because if I do that won't end up coming to anything either.

So I won't say anything. And don't try to guess, or tell me what you think any of this is about, or even think about it. Put it out of your head entirely.

You know what?

I'm not going to be in a film again.

Well.. I got another phone call out of the blue from someone who's studying at the PCFE film school, who saw my info in the database and asked if I was interested/available Sunday and Monday and happily I said yes, as I was/am. He sent me the script and it looked pretty interesting, so I replied, yeah it's cool, I want to do it, let's meet tomorrow. So I got an answer back saying that for some reason the crew fell apart and there was a problem so he's not doing it.

Oh well. Same old story. I wish these people would figure out whether they're making the damn thing before they call me though. But anyway, all is not lost, there are more being made and there's a casting for them on Tuesday so I'll go along to that. Of course because I've told you about it nothing will come of it like it never does so forget I said anything.

Oh, and in case you're interested, and I know all my readers are, both of you. I've updated my other blogs, which I don't so often these days, but just so you know 1000 Words and Draw On My Boobs have new posts up. Nothing interesting, in fact they're both quite boring so don't expect anything good.

A photo

*Gets head out of clouds*

I had a lovely couple of days. I went travelling on a train, I went around nice places in Prague, dined in lovely restaurants and cozy pubs. I lounged around home luxuriously with someone who I like lounging luxuriously with and we relaxed and did.. stuff. And I took lots of photos.

Now he's gone.. no lounging luxuriously, no trudging up hills to get a great view, no rides on trains, just the same old shit that I've been pushing to the back of my head all this time. I might have to think about it soon.. I don't really have anything to keep my mind off it. Reality will kick in very soon and I'm not going to have my friend, the one I love to lounge luxuriously with, to soften the blow.

Now, you're doing this on purpose right?

My regular readers, both of you, will know that I'm an actress. You will also know that I've never done anything more impressive than a student film... and that's ok. You also maybe know that the films I do are few and far between.. well for my liking they are, and that I'm pretty chuffed to be in these films, whenever I can be.

You may also know that I've pretty much got nothing going on most of the time, and I'm always available to act, whether it's weekend, weekday, day, night, christmas...

well.. that's most of the time. You might also know starting Thursday and this weekend, I will be busy entertaining a guest, someone who I am required, and very much want to spend every minute with. So I'm not at all available during that time, making this weekend and exception to that rule, in fact, pretty much the only time in the ENTIRE YEAR that I won't be available to film.

So, I get a call from a guy who's a student at the PCFE film school. He wants me to act in his film. And when do you think he's filming the thing?

Yeah.. that's right.

Guess what?

I'm not gonna whine. Not in this section anyway.

Yeah, I'm still probably going to be ruined, still living in this flat under ridiculous circumstances, still doing nothing of note in my life and all the rest of the bullshit.. but right now I don't care.

I'm having a visitor, who is coming in 3 days, the 14th, which is a very fitting date if you are the sort of person who observes the kind of minor capitalist holiday that bombards us with tons of pink plastic heart shapes and tacky underwear, which I'm not usually but this year I'll make an exception. Yes, he's that sort of visitor.

So I'm pretty happy right now.

*flutters off*

I need sleep...

This happens when you live with/share with/are staying with the most annoying fucking person in the fucking world. A person who comes in very drunk regularly and can stay on the verge of passing out, muttering incoherent, unrelated nonsense for hours and hours, who thinks that playing "Michelle" by the Beatles when your name is Michelle at a time you'd just managed to fall asleep for a bit inspite of it all, is cute, and shows how much he appreciates you, who in the morning decides he wants to listen to music so you get up even though you could use way more sleep and he sits there talking bullshit to you all day without a break until you want to scream, or strangle him, or both.

I'm on my way..

To fame, critical acclaim, wealth and general stardom. As a film maker I mean.. not to say I'm not gonna still do all the other stuff, but I'm getting somewhere with this.



I mean.. I still have to learn how to use the camera properly, and probably get a better one, that's primarily for film, and a tripod, and all that equipment stuff and learn how to use it. And come up with ideas for stuff to film, write scripts, get locations, actors, crews.. all that. Oh and learn something about editing.. maybe get a decent program that can do it.

Other than that I'm set.

Breathing now..

Ok, the month that I decided was evil and the cause of all my woes is over now, so things.. you can start getting real good as soon as you want now..

just letting you know.. I'm ready. I'm waiting..