Must not succumb.. must not succumb..

to dorkiness...

oh fuck.. I can't help it.

Right. So last year I gave myself the easiest possible fucking resolutions I could, in order that I might fulfill some. I actually did, but failed in half of them anyway, and I wasn't going to do it this year because (see yesterday) it's too depressing and if I fail (which I will) everything will be a disaster.

But, being a dork I am unable to resist doing the theme thing, so I have to come up with something, but instead of being sensible and going for something remotely attainable, I'm just going to go all out.

*In the coming year I will get a significant role in a semi major motion picture, which will pay extremely well and boost my *career* to a level where I will be getting regular fun, fulfilling and extremely well paid acting work. Being so sort after I will also be able to spend more time writing plays, perhaps a novel and making some short films of my own that will be very well received. Though I will be quite busy doing all this work that will bring me all sorts of acclaim and lots of money, I won't have to do anything else so I will spend the time blogging, taking photos, both which I will get much better at, and get a lot more notice due to my *fame*. I will also have the time and money to travel, and hang out and generally have fun.

It's looming..

It's that time of year again, the end part, the part where you're made to think about the next one coming and what you're going to do and what you're going to change. I don't really want to though. I had plans, before, to make the next year, or the general "near future" era to be the one where I finally do all the exciting things I've been meaning to do for ages, but I don't think I'll be able to do that now, I will have to concentrate all my attention on basically sorting things out.

So my aim for the next year is just to get things fixed enough so I can basically survive. I must toil and strive in order to get myself in a place that equals about where I was a year and a half ago, before I got more sucked back into this pit that I've been trying to scramble out of. So a whole lot of drudgerous work, and not much to gain from it, just the right to carry on surviving somehow, though not as well off as I was last year.

No, I shan't be making any resolutions this year. It's all a bit depressing really, and those resolutions are made to be broken. I deliberately made them as piss easy as I could last year, and even then I failed to keep half of them, and I really can't afford to fail in this one as it would mean the ruin of me, and I'd prefer to not go through that.

So I'll just try my best.

I shall have to find a reason to use this..

Word of the Day

bibulous \BIB-yuh-luhs\, adjective:

1. Of, pertaining to, marked by, or given to the consumption of alcoholic drink.

2. Readily absorbing fluids or moisture.
Vineyards are everywhere, especially when Felix approaches Paris, the most populous city in Christendom -- and the most bibulous too, since lousy local wine had to be drunk before it turned sour in a few months.
-- Eugen Weber, "Renaissance Men", New York Times, April 13, 1997

Ever since the joys of the fermented grape were discovered, the bibulous have been waking up feeling the worse for wear.
-- Sally Chatterton, "The Daily Website: www.hungover.net", Independent, September 3, 2001

Bibulous comes from Latin bibulus, from bibere, "to drink."

Dictionary.com Entry and Pronunciation for bibulous

Ah yes, the blog.

Well I'm back online, finally. If there's anyone out there still bothering to read I've been offline for almost a month now. You might remember me popping in just to let everyone know I was still around once during that time, but mostly I just haven't been able to update.

I was working most of the month, as Santa Claus came to town for the first time ever, at least in the capacity he was here, and I was required to take his photo with children who came by. It was an interesting time, fun, boring, tiring, frustrating, unusual..

It was as bit of a learn as you go sort of thing, it was a bit of a shambles to start with, too many people hanging around, hardly any people wanting our services, but it slightly came together, and by the end of the first week we'd figured out how to get the lighting right, had fixed up Santa to look something like Santa, and I'd learnt a bit about this whole photography thing so our photos were looking pretty good.

We still had some problems though, a few extra helpers around who were just there to be paid and get in our way, people who either didn't come at all or came at the same time, a problem because we printed the photos out on the spot which took some time, particularly when people wanted more photos or the larger photos, and you can't print and photograph at the same time, so people were waiting.. but we figured it out, and once it actually got sorta busy, right near the end of our time there, we had a sort of system, and the only problem then was that our main cashier/hostess left, disgruntled over something, and left me to do the cashier job as well as the printing and photography, as well as 80% of the greeting and explaining work to be done, as the 2 helpers we had with us daily didn't seem to happen to be around when that was needed, or if they were they happened to be looking another way.

It took me about 2 days before I could do the register thing without screwing something up, but hey.. I'm an artist, I shouldn't have to work under these conditions. Ok, so for the first week I couldn't figure out how to take a decent picture.. but I did learn these things in time.

So that was most of the month, I also had my usual business to tend to, which I didn't do a whole lot of, seeing as I was offline and at work all the time, and I had a visitor. That was fun. Then there was christmas, and now I'm back online.

Don't fret folks..

I'm still around. I am working quite a lot with Santa and the little people, but that's not the reason I've been neglecting you. I'm offline. Well.. not right at this minute but the regular way I do the internet is not happening right now so I'm not on as much as I usually am, thus things like letting my audience out there know what's up with my life is falling by the wayside.

So, apart from not being online I'm working a lot. I was supposed to be in a film today and yesterday but that fell through just like the others, instead I worked with Santa which I've been doing since December 1.

I'm getting reasonably good at this portrait photography thing, I totally sucked to begin with but after 2 or 3 days they started looking kinda good. After another 3 days they looked almost good and in another 3 days I might be able to call them good.

Been kinda slow so far, which is rather good really because we're learning as we go along, but tomorrow might turn out to be a busy day. Who knows.

I don't have any photos to show because the dude who runs it hasn't sent me the photos yet, and there are some good ones, particularly those of screaming scared kids who's parents insist on them being photographed with Santa. I've taken some of the place and the people there with my own new camera, but I can't upload them because I'm not on the internet. I mean I am now, and actually had a few photos prepared on a disc but this particular cafe doesn't accept no foreign objects.

That's all for now.

It's off to work I go.

It's been an exciting couple of days. I had a birthday on Thursday. I really didn't need another one, I've had enough of those already, but it came all the same. I had a relatively relaxing day, mostly stayed in and only got a little drunk, but it was fun.

Yesterday I got a new camera. This is extremely exciting. It's got a big zoom and everything, and it's got a memory card that fits like.. 1 million photos so I can snap and snap and snap and snap and not worry about it. I'm gonna have fun with this.

So, in about half an hour I'm off to meet Santa and friends, to get ready for the new job, which is "photographer". Sounds very swanky, but it's very simple, the camera's sitting there on a tripod and I just have to snap. Nevertheless I'm nervous, I'm naturally quite incompetent and manage to screw up the simplest of things, so I'm glad I'm going a bit early to go through the whole thing again. I had a sort of training on Wednesday where a guy came in and babbled out quickly how to use the printer and camera to about 8 people, and I'm not sure I picked up so much.

It's the first day, so hopefully it will be really, really, really, really slow. That will give me time to get used to the whole point and shoot and fiddle with the functions to print and then print again, all while being presentable and nice to people, I really need that time.

Damn... gotta go soon. Back in the evening.