Dammit weather gods!

You know how when it's really really hot like 35 degrees plus every single day or whatever equivalent it takes for you to start whining and I mean constantly about how hot it is and you just at that particular time when there's a heat wave you are required to go out in it for long periods every day, like way more than you usually do in more temperate weather and it starts weakening you, literally making you weaker, and dumber so that you forget um.. words and stuff, and it keeps seeming like it's going to storm any minute and you just can't wait and the forecast says it's going to rain and get cooler but it doesn't, it just doesn't, repeatedly and there you are just out in it getting sun burnt and sun struck and then finally, it storms. And then it keeps raining and at first you're out in it and you're like oh this is wonderful, so refreshing I love this, I don't understand why I ever complained about the rain, ad then it keeps raining, and raining, and continues to rain. And then you're over it. Well I'm over it now.

Is it me...

or is it the lack of light, the drizzle, the cold which isn't really all that cold but it just seems like it should be because it's all grey and damp so I feel like I'm cold anyway or that I would if I went outside?

I think it's me. And maybe the season. Mostly me.

That's Life.

Well, it seems things have pretty much changed. Barely a week ago I was in a funk, a slump, a.. something else that means more or less the same thing with one syllable that has a snappy sound. Then circumstances changed and that particular thing went away.

Then I was required to be places, and travel on buses, early! I wouldn't anymore have any free time to do my own thing over the day, from chillin in comfort to doing all the research and study and practice and editing and writing that I totally intended to do every day that would bring.. well that eventually would lead to something. And of course, starting something new is always stressful for me. I started and it seemed I was going ok, then I wasn't sure, then I'm in that position I always am with everything where I'm not sure about something, don't know whether to ask or just do it or what. still, seemed to work out so far.

Then I got a phone call about one of those annoying, worrying things to do with official stuff that now I have to worry about. Actually it was something I already had to worry about just now I have to worry about it more.

So, life goes on. Had a weekend, fun and relaxing despite the things I had to worry about, but I lost my hat. a day trip that took me out of the city for the first time this year, I think. That was pleasant, I have lots of photos. Then back to work. Still no progress on the thing I need to worry about more, nice of them to call on a Friday before a Monday I would be out of town.... and I didn't get my hat back.

Now today I'm working from home, for about who knows how long, it's raining, which doesn't bother me too much, considering the timing works out for me. No money yet, and I've completely ran out of my film money from the summer but we have plenty of stuff in the house for once so I can live with that. Soon, when I get the link I will start doing what I'm supposed to do the next few days and see if it's really difficult or annoying or interesting or if it takes me so much longer to do it than usual or what. So, a bit of this a bit of that, worries, joy, loss, fun stuff. That's just life. I really would like my hat back though.

Yep, it's here.

Generally it's a nice thing when spring starts showing up, it gets warmer, trees start blossoming there's green and pink and green everywhere, it's lovely. And sunshine, not only are there more sunny days, but it's sunny for longer, that's awesome.

And then it rains. Then it a blue sky breaks out almost immediately but no sooner do you get done beaming on how quickly it cleared up do dark clouds show up. You walk away from the window and when you come back the sky is black, it's windy and raindrops are falling. 

And it rains, hard. Then it stops, it clears up and is quite nice again for a while. Just a while, a short while. And before you know it rain clouds show up on the horizon again, or more like are right there in your face getting thicker and darker.

You can see where this is going. It's been that kind of day. If nothing else it at least says that the warmer season or spring/summer is here.

It might storm tonight. 

I want a hat.

A real nice one. A Fedora, whatever that actually is, or a Trilby, I like the sound of that. Maybe one of those lady hats that ladies wore back when ladies wore hats. No reason, just like hats. Oh and reasons, metaphorical ones.

I'm in a rut. Surprise surprise, I know, nothing to write home or indeed on a blog about but nevertheless, here I write. You may notice there has been little writing of late, this among other reasons, may be the reason. Maybe not.

It stopped raining. Not forever, and it actually rained this morning but it stopped raining endlessly, and there was a bit of sunshine. I probably shouldn't have written this, because you know, law of stuff.

That's all.

Hey.. another month!

It's June now. Still not working, still not ready to start for one reason or another, it's raining, still not doing any theatre and still haven't finished editing the one small very modest video we shot a few months ago and haven't gotten a chance to do the other shoot that's been on the agenda for months because it keeps raining on the weekend. I have some new videos, well one.. it's nothing, I just made it so I'd have at least one single upload for the month, and didn't manage to edit the other one yet (see above) because of an inability to use audio editing software, partly anyway.. and of course I didn't make, edit or do any all month otherwise... and I have another that's not really new, actually it's about a month old, the one I uploaded at the end of last month so I'd have something... but no one's looked at it yet so it's kinda new.

I mean, the whole point of setting myself the modest goal of uploading one fucking thing at least a month was to motivate me to make these videos, edit, upload and have a whole lot of material, get better and better at doing this stuff.. but, every month I manage to scrape through, quickly editing something or shooting something pointless just so I have one.. I'm going to have to set myself more difficult or specific goals, I think.. something I can easily fail at.. maybe I'd do better :). I don't know.. maybe I should stop worrying about any of this and just, get a job already.

I wish it would stop raining.

2 days to go

Jan is nearly over, and though it doesn't promise and end to bullshit bullshit that's bullshit, and in fact historically has rarely been any improvement and some years crappier than Jan, it promises a start to something I to be perfectly honest I'm not sure I want to do but I'm gonna say it's a good thing. One must have something to look forward to, one has always said. Well one is saying it now anyway.

This day was barely if at all an improvement on the pit of despair that was yesterday. Much the same in many ways.. and had to dewal with annoying bureacratic stuff.. a lot of waiting etc etc. A
 new thing well not a new thing but something that was annoying me but I had a slight hope I'd be able to do something to make it less bad came up, and I can't make it less bad, it's official. Still no power, but at least it was sorted and now it's just to wait for it all to be fixed, so at least that, at least a potentially better day to look forward to.

Apart from that... once this has sorted out, apart from not being exactly richer, and probably even poorer than I'd like to be.. well, than i expected I'd be, well in the proxy way, if that means anything, then it will be much as it would hagvfe been the rest of this month of Jan, whcih is, meh.. nothing to write home about.

Oh and it rained today.

But still.. 2 days.

Dear Weather Gods

I'm getting real tired of drizzly. Please do something about it.

Widen the scope please, and preferably.. actually most certainly wider than the overcast to heavy rain spectrum, that would not necessarily please me in fact it might just (in fact yes it will) piss me off. So not that, something nice, something pleasant. A little bit of cold (not below -6 please) with some pretty snow would be good, for a while. And an early spring.

Just stop the drizzling.. and all the other stuff I don't like, I know it's Jan but.. come on!

Guess that's over then.

I thought summer was over for a bit, then it came back again. Didn't last. Oh well.. at the moment it's raining which is to be expected, I suppose. At least if it has to rain for most of a month it should get it out of the way before shooting begins.. yes, shooting. I'm working on a movie... and it's starting very soon. I can barely believe it but, I need to, and prepare, and get ready, and have everything rea.. I think I kinda said that already.. point is, I need to get stuff.. yeah I said it already. I just need to, so I'll go and do that now..

*sweats*

Well.

Summer has certainly arrived.. in a big way. Right now it's raining, kinda heavy, maybe stormy.. fine with me,  just got in and missed the worst of it, though it may not have been so bad, as it's still pretty warm.. hot even.

Yesterday was certainly the hottest day of this year, and likely the hottest for quite a few years and of course it was a day of an outing out of the city, which involved a lot of walking to and from out destination, as well as around our destination. It was good though, a beautiful castle that was the residence of the man who got himself shot and started a war which changed the world.. Konopište.. if you want to be a bit more direct. Very nice, though the castle and grounds can probably be enjoyed more extensively on one of those days it's nice to walk around.. you know, some lovely gardens which a sweating couple was getting married in, nice, but very washed out in the light.. and way too hot to walk around, if we'd been able to..

Still, a very nice day, and a I learned a lot, something that sadly is not so typical of my weekends. The evening was better suited to walking and we tried it again after dark but the fatigue from earlier kept it to a minimum.

Today was cooler, particularly by the evening, and again met up with the same people for a walk around our own lovely city, from up on the hill where the castle is, down the hill, across the Charles Bridge with a few starts and stops because of some erratic rain.. and into a lovely pub just in time for it to get real heavy.

Well we still had to get home, and managed to run across the road to shelter, and then across again to a crowded tram which got us home in time for.. well, we didn't have far to go so didn't get too wet, but it either  is raining like it was or even heavier..

So that's it, my weekend complete with weather report. If anyone still was reading this blog, I guess that probably takes care of them.

Oh and there was a European cup final on this evening. I think Spain won.

Speaking of elements.

It's raining. Yeah.. nothing interesting has happened since the last thing so I'm talking about the weather. It changed.. well not really so much the other day when I lamented the unseasonal weather being over, it got back to being quite nice, and tolerably warm. And then yesterday. I knew it was colder, so on my way out I wore more layers, warmer clothing than I had done for some time. I was still too cold.

Now it's raining, and freezing. Relatively. Winter is coming.

Just Right.

Can you believe it the weather gods got it right! Temporarily at least, and even on a Sunday which is unusually lucky. It's been hotter than hell the last week or so, which you may have heard about.. well, yesterday the temperature dropped to below hot, or just a bit too warm, or just warm enough, or kinda cool to being, well, cold... at least comparatively, and raining. Lots..

It was quite vexing, not in the least because people actually showed up for a tour in this downpour.. well, it did stop raining after a few minutes, but still.

Well.. today was, ok the morning was a bit of a shambles seeing as our plumbing stuff was again out of order, and then the fixit dudes came and went a couple of times, but this time with an actual excorc.. I mean plumber and we had to wait around, and then sit around, and then wait around again, but after that.. it was cool.

Now I gotta go out to work again.. til about midnight.. *sighs*

Still a nice day though.

Happy Fucking August!

So.. it's here. It's Monday, it's raining.. and raining and raining, I have a fucked up ankle from walking down my stairs while fucking with the phone yesterday before work.. then a 3 hour tour in the most rough cobblestoned area of Prague, and a run to the tram stop and my internet has been patchy up until right now and quite frankly, I don't see this little stretch lasting.

On the other hand.. I don't have to work tonight and I have a good excuse to not leave the house at all.. though my ankle isn't so bad right now.. internet is on (for now at least) and the sound of the rain pitter pattering outside is strangely soothing.

So there you go.

Just when I thought we were actually going to get summer...

Once coming back to Prague it was hot for a while.. a bit too hot some days and to be sure I whined about that. Then it started raining... the end.

Well.. it's a little more nuanced than that, for about 2 weeks we've had this back and forth weather where it often rains some time during the day, and quite typically out of nowehere when the day's been quite nice.. so, unexpected for the most part, but it's been unusually mild.. even cold seeming at times. And raining more often than I'd like. Right now it's raining in that "I don't intend to stop anytime soon and you can stuff it" way.. which is particularly pleasing as it's my first weekend day off in ages.. and we're going out of the city today.. but whatev, what can you do.

Brilliant timing!

So.. leaving in... um.. tomorrow! Jeez.. and still have tons of stuff to do.. packing, cleaning, planning, shopping, and I've got a cool freebie thing to pick up which.. ok, it's good, it's really something I shouldn't grumble about but fuck.. I don't have the time, and can you believe there was a fucking transport strike yesterday! Well.. trams ran but few and far between and very packed, so it wasn't the most ideal situation for transporting stuff, or for getting to work for that matter, or for getting a bunch of tourists up to the castle...

The tour turned out alright, we got a tram and it was only seriously packed for one stop.. and after that, it was nice, spent a bit too much time int he brewery pub but so, the tour went over a bit and people seemed to like it. It didn't rain until afterwards when I was walking from the office to the tram stop.. with the monitor, and it didn't start getting heavy until I was just about to the stop, and a few seconds before I got myself to a bit of shelter. Then it stormed. Briefly.. well the storm ended and indeed it stopped raining before the tram came, and that's not only because of the weird weather we've been having, it took about half an hour to come. What was particularly vexing was that there were like, 2 number 9s that came before a 22 did. Yes, I need the 22.

So.. weird day, but overall ok, I spose. Now, to embark upon today. Still tons of shit to do, shit to bring home, heavy stuff.. packing.. etc etc etc. Jeez.

arrrggghhh!

It had to go and rain!

*grumbles and stuff*

and I had such good ideas to.. *rethinks stuff*

If there actually is a difference between "now" and "whenever"..

You might have noticed I've been feeling down lately. Or at least expressing myself on the blog in way which would lead one to believe that if in fact, the me that I present here, is based at least somewhat on the real me, that I am, in fact, feeling a bit down.

Then again, I believe I present myself somewhat as a negative person, in general. Whether it's more pronounced at the proverbial moment, I know not.. really.

There are reasons as I've mentioned though not explained, and yes, those reasons are valid. Then again, there are always reasons, usually some variations of the same ones... and really, right now, the real life concrete stuff that worries me.. the same old shit, not worse than usual.. so why am I so bloody mopey all the time?

yes yes yes, I'm so bloody mopey all the time all the time, but if we just go with the theme that I'm more mopey all the time than usual at the mo then well.. why?

I blame darkness, and rain. These are things I kinda like really. Well not really rain, I'm sorta neutral to negative on it in the way that most people who don't have crops are, but darkness, night, sundown all that, they're kinda cool. The thing is they're cool in their place, at actual night, when you come out of the pub or are strolling the streets being cool. In the afternoon, it's a different matter, when you're setting out to go somewhere, and it also happens to be raining. It kinda sucks, and to be honest, it kinda gets me down.

That's what I think anyway.

Doom and gloom.. go together like..

something not at all pleasant, and something else, that isn't pleasant at all.

It's just raining and raining.. and raining and raining and raining. Well it stopped a while ago but it was raining a real lot... perhaps it's started again.

I have class tonight.. I'm already kind of over it, even though it's only the 3rd one.. I mean my 3rd.. it's already like the 5th one but that's kind of neither here nor there.. but it's just so.. hard.. well for me.. I mean I think it's hard but this shit.. this shit, and I may have mentioned this before, just isn't me. I dunno.. I always have this feeling of dread before the day comes the class is on, and as it approaches evening, and as I'm ready to go out, and as I'm sitting in class waiting my turn.. it's just.. grrr..

So I already feel enough like not budging.. and well.. the rain.. you know.

*sighs*

Strange things happen on a rainy night..

It's a strange old night. It was an interesting day. Went to a barbecue in the countryside. Well.. you can probably guess that due to it's being a rainy night, and therefore a high probability of it having been a rainy day, it probably wasn't the most ideal day for one.. but we had an enjoyable time in an old run down house that's being renovated in the hope it will be open for business as a hotel/restaurant type deal sometime in the future, talking to some people who were strange enough to be interesting.

It was a weirdly enjoyable drive home in the rain... I dunno, there's something surreal about driving at night in the countryside and even more when it rains.. and of course our city dwelling driver took a bit of time to get on the right track so there was the usual hilarity that ensues on such occasion.. you know what I mean.

So.. she drops us off at a tram stop.. we come home to the not nearest stop but the one where we have to walk a bit.. and it's raining, and we get off the train and almost walk into some guy with a ladder. As we get on our way he puts the ladder in front of some flat, like he's trying to fit it in the window.. no idea what that was about. Then we walk by some people outside of some restaurant washing some sink or something.. or painting it.. I dunno. Wouldn't think that's the ideal time to do such a thing...

as we're approaching our street we hear some sirens.. or alarms.. not sure what, but knowing the place we live, and certain people who lived here, we hoped to whoever is up there or where it is whoever they are is, that it didn't originate from our building.. with cops refusing our entry, leaving us soaking on the street while our cat is stranded up there..

Fortunately it turned out to be some dickhead playing with the alarm on his car or something... nothing to do with us. We were safe, all we had to do, was get in out of the rain and everything's cool. So we get to our door, we get in out of the rain and what do we see.. well, certain people was lying on the stairs.. still. Now, we've seen this element passed out in the hall more than once before.. so it wasn't the hugest shock, but the guy is like 70 something.. so you have to wonder, a bit.

Turned out he was alive.. thank goodness, really didn't want to have to deal with reporting it to the authorities at this point :) and we walked past him.. said good evening to each other, and safely into our flat. The end.

Every day is like today.

It is really. Think about it.

Today has been relatively dull, and if you have the slightest knowledge of the sort of thing it's relative too then you'll understand that it's very dull indeed.

I will set foot out of the house in a little bit and do something, so the interestingness rating of this day might rise to slightly more interesting than usual, which, if you have any idea of what is usual, is very dull indeed.

I would mention that it's cooled down, and it actually rained a bit and earlier on it was almost cold.. at least relatively, but I've been writing an awful lot about the weather lately and even though it's pretty clear no matter what my subject matter is, I don't want to be too over the top obvious about the fact that my life is boring, I'm completely boring and I'm a boring writer who only ever writes about stuff that's utterly boring so I won't.